2013 is coming to an end?!

How can this year pass so quickly?

When I just came to college this year, I thought it would be a really long year. I was anxious, I didn't know what to expect. But God has been so good to me, this has been the best year of my life so far. After coming here, I have grown spiritually and God has blessed me with really good friends worth keeping, and reminded me of the friends He has already blessed me with in Kuching. I thank God that He put this desire in me to know Him more and be more like Him (though no one is perfect,we still fail sometimes). I feel that there is a change of heart in me. A heart that wants to please Him in all that I do. But I admit that there is still a long way to go and I still need a lot of moulding. God has also opened my eyes to see the meaningless-ness of many things we're doing in our lives. 

One day a friend wanted to post a picture on Instagram, he spent so much time just thinking of what CAPTION to put. *types* *backspaces* *types* *backspaces* In the end he didn't post the picture. And people spending so much time on their looks, on games,..when maybe a sick person out there would give all he has to buy more time to be with his family before he leaves this world. 

This year, I started doubting about a fre things like 'How do I know Jesus is real?' 'how do I know the Bible is true?' which basically is the question 'how do I know Christianity is true?' but my faith has only grown and not backslided because of these questions as I slowly uncover truths. If only my friends would get to know Jesus! It is fear that is stopping us from doing what we should for our friends. As I apply for university courses, it has been a time of testing as well but I choose to trust God now and I pray that I will be sensitive to what He wants me to do (sometimes I'm just so blur I can't see the signs). It has been hard putting God first before my studies too. As my exam is coming in January, I can't help but still feel worried and I find myself not relying fully on God for His strength even though He has given more than what I expected for the 1st A-level exam. 

If only all the people who are hurting, angry, frustrated, confused, hopeless and unloved would know that Jesus is the answer to all of the questions in our  hearts. 

'Our hearts have a God-shaped hole' that obviously only God can fill, but we always look for other things to try to fill that emptiness!

Christmas card from Charis :)