12(13) April

Now I'm sitting in front of this laptop at 12:05 a.m., completing the career decision making course's homework---personality test. My result: ISFJ. Want to serve others. Patient, sympathetic. Warm. "Nice". Loyal. Hurt easily. Family.

One day in Bio class
Ms. Yee: Stop playing your candy crush, whatever crush or I'll crush your phone!

Today's CF sharing was about fearing the Lord and the speaker shared about looking at the random strangers we pass by everyday, and looking at them as people the Lord loves.

As I walked on the streets of Brickfields and 'accidentally' glanced at a prostitute at the brothel, I realised that it is really hard to believe that God actually LOVES them. But who am I to say that I deserve God's love?

I'm in this stage of life where I feel empty and directionless and just don't know what to do after Alevel. This feeling of emptiness and achievement-less and lifelesssss WHICHHHH makes me want to smack myself cause I'm being ungrateful again when God has blessed me with bursary and good friends and good housemates and He's just, always there even when we don't realise it. Before this, I KNEW that I won't be able to get the bursary because 9A+ is just pfffft, please la, impossible. But now that God has REALLY blessed me with it, I stop realising the awesomeness of this reality-- I mean, woots I got A- for chinese man! Woots! and A+ for Bio that is just PFFFFTTT SKY FALLING DOWN

I'm just typing and typing without thinking much now. These 3 months in college has really blessed me. The new experience, new environment, and what I love about this college--the chapel sharings, the people, help you to grow more in Christ. So these 3 months have indeed been a period of growth :D

Talking about growth, I pity the master chef at home Charin cause I feel like I'm such a tall big person who requires a lot of maintenance :P

But the feeling of emptiness just keeps coming back.

Y U SO EMO

Wheeee chatting with Elene on Skype